i really didn't want to get into them.. boy bands to me will always be N*SYNC and Backstreet Boys.. but this popped up on my feed the other day and it is now on repeat. i can't help myself it's just too good (and it also reminds me of someone)
if my biggest fault is that i ask too many questions because i'm trying to get to know you better but you don't want to open up to me.. is it really MY biggest fault? am i annoying for wanting to see you as you are? am i a suffocating girlfriend if i want to get a glimpse at your mind and heart? because i want to know what kind of person you are. because i want intelligent, meaningful conversations. because i want us to be opinionated, to challenge each other, and change and grow together as individuals and as a couple. am i too much? or after one year, am i behind? am i delusional? am i crazy? i don't think so.
my girl mind overthinks things, over analyzes, works overtime.
but he wins me over again when he gets a bit angry at me but still realizes i may be yelling out of frustration. he is calm in the storm. he doesn't always try to rile me up. but he still doesn't understand and i don't know what else to tell him because he doesn't seem to see it.
Valentine's Day ( since it's most relevant ) . i was feeling really guilty about missing our first valentine's together and groupon was calling out to me . so about 3 weeks ago i bought this deal and had this in the works for a while . they sent out the night before from Illinois of all places -.- and i tracked it through UPS . seriously one of those little things that make you happy is following a package across state lines . or maybe that's just me . & that morning, a few people got flowers mailed to them . i didn't even know that was possible . and i swear this city of love was covered in hues of red and pink, roses and chocolates . no joke satellites could see us from space . and friends in the program were sending love back to the states . so i thought i'd write a little something for him and post it on his wall (bad idea by the way) . i had hoped people weren't online at that time and at school but of course it got bumped and notifications galore . i was hoping to have a skype date that night but he went down to visit irvine peeps so we settled for my Valentine's morning and his Valentine's morning . time difference has definitely made it hard for us to keep in contact . that and because my classes are at a certain time and he works when i'm online . my roommmates don't have to accommodate for all these things and they fall asleep on skype with their SOs. i miss him . i'm actually feeling really homesick recently . probably because i haven't traveled out of the city since Rome weekend . but when i say homesick, i mean missing my friends and my work and my life in irvine . i miss the familiar . i miss the food . i just miss my version of HOME . i know i should be out there enjoying life in a different country but i'm just in a funk from all this cold weather (rain and snow) . staying inside is all i can do because i'm already a bit sickly . i keep thinking to myself 25% over.. that's pretty good.. almost time . but i know once all my travels start up again in march i'll want time to slow down . Venice Carnevale this Saturday ; it's like mardi gras for us . it is actually celebrated in a bunch of different countries as well as in Florence . there's this pastry called 'Cenci' that's made this time of year that's delicious and i've been gobbling it all up before it's gone . we'll also be catching the tail end of the 2 week Chocolate Festival in Florence on Sunday . i told you the city was covered in chocolate and this is the main reason why . just vendors set up around the city selling beautifully molded chocolate . pictures to come .
My weekend in Roma: 1. St. Peter's Basilica in Vatican City during Sunday mass. 2. Lights strung down this long street in the capital like the Italian flag lit up.. just beautiful 3. The Colosseum of course :) summed up : we walked a lot, visited a ton of historical sites, took the train to shady places but made it out alive . the city is amazing, filled with life and beauty just around the corner (literally, many times i'd just glance to my left and BAM Colosseum or BAM beautiful church) . my favorite would have to be Piazza Navona with beautiful fountains and statues but once was a stadium where games were held . there was this small jazz band playing in the streets where the restaurants lined down and it felt like the French Quarter in New Orleans . the music was AMAZING . i could stand there for hours on end listening to them play . who would've thought i'd find that in Italy .
Florence at night is beautiful but can be deathly cold, no wait scratch that.. Florence in winter can be deathly cold. Forecast for snow is looming and rain threatens our group trip to Pisa and Lucca. but i can't complain because i'm on a little 4 months vacation from life in the states. Our apartment is freezing cold but it's cute, colorful, and i've always wanted to live in the city. Living in city center can be quite expensive, think downtown SF, so i got lucky to be paying the same amount as everyone else but have the luxury of being near everything. i walk carefully down steep flights of stairs onto a bustling streets filled with tiny cars and mopeds and have to dodge people walking swiftly to get out of this cold. almost 23 years of LA did not prepare me for the runny nose and pink cheeks i instantly feel once i step out of the hallway. but walking to school is joyful when there is so much to ogle at. i pass by The David & The Duomo , and so much more historical sites that aren't as popular, everyday. it's amazing being in such an old city. adjusting.. but more later . my roomie is sick & about to head to sleep so i'll do the same. Buonasera!
it's just too good (and it also reminds me of someone)
